My Country Tis Of Thee

I was going to write something awesome about the inauguration. But, others, who are much smarter than me, have done so already. I will leave it at this: God Bless President Barack Obama. May we all support and respect him and his office (at least until he screws it all up!). He certainly needs our support more than anything.

I don't have much else to report right now. The diet is not going well. The dr thinks I have kidney stones. I'm just a bundle of joy.

So....

You'd guess wrong. Even with me being rather, OPEN, about my size here, you'd probably guess wrong. I carry my weight amazingly well. No one ever believes me when I say how big I really am.

Anyway, I'm not sure I'm going to give a number here. I probably should, but I won't. I will say that I'm up 5 pounds from where I *started* 2 weeks ago, when I was supposedly starting over with the weight loss blog. The good news is I'm still 20 lbs lighter than my heaviest weight, which was in October of 2007, when I started Weight Watchers.

Weekly pictures probably won't help much. So, I'll take monthly pictures, and hopefully it will look like pregnancy in reverse. Instead of my tummy getting bigger and bigger, I want to see it get smaller and smaller. Strike that. I WILL see it get smaller and smaller.

I will do my best each post to stay positive and upbeat about this. Although, given my mood at the moment, that's not going to be easy.

So, here I am. Feel free to point and make fun of the beached whale. I know I am. I hate that this is me.

Don't read my Blog.

Seriously.

I suck at this. I can't keep up, which is sad, cuz most of the time I feel like I'm not doing much. The last week has been a blur. Mostly of pain.

I have a stomach/possible gallbladder problem. I don't know which, cuz the dr hasn't called me back. All I know is that it hurts like hell. I eat Tums like they're candy, and avoid meat. And the painkillers don't work. I'm asking for Vicodin when I go back. This pansy crap painkiller doesn't cut it at all. I might as well take Tylenol and a kiddie vitamin.

My thyroid is out of whack again, so I got a higher dosage of meds. YAY! not. BOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! actually. I don't want to be on meds at all. But, I like my body to run properly. Or at least I'd like to pretend it runs properly. So I take the damn hormones.

My cholesterol is going high, and my weight is up. Which I knew, cuz my jeans were getting tight again. The dr made a slightly veiled threat - cholesterol lowering meds are in my future if I don't get it together and lose weight and eat better. Why can't ice cream lower cholesterol? Seriously. Oatmeal really doesn't taste that good. At least I got a buttload of Quaker on sale a few weeks ago. That might last me the 3 months til my next blood draw.

So, That's where things stand. I'm in and out of the dr's lately, and that's not likely to change. I have 2 follow-ups, 2 weight checks, a Holter monitor to wear, a trip to Reno to see my eye specialist, and a dentist appt all within the next 3 months.

I hope all of you out there in cyber-land are doing better. And I really truly promise to come back on Tuesday and update you all with an at-home weight check and my before pics from 2 weeks ago. Stay tuned!

HAHA

So, I promised in November that I would blog more. Now, I haven't been back in 2 months. HAHA! Fooled you!

And, this isn't really going to be a book blog anymore. I'm venturing back into weight loss. I did great on WW before, lost about 40 lbs. Then I quit, and gained back some of it. My health is deteriorating (more on that later), my mind is a mess, and I don't function well on a day to day basis.

What does that mean? It means that I will occasionally blog about what I'm reading. I will occasionally blog about my weight loss journey. I will occasionally blog about whatever I feel like. As I said in the beginning, it's my blog, and I will write whatever I feel.

And, since I know I can be offensive from time to time, I either ask your forgiveness, or ask you to leave. I won't censor my thoughts and words all the time - sometimes, there's only one word that truly describes what I'm feeling.

So, stay tuned. Tomorrow, I will start with some before pics. Beware, they are not pretty!